confuseeeee

i've said this into my fb's status :

"my mind has divided into 2 parts, feel so scary about future, and so happy about yesterday and today. never think much consequentlies which make u so hard esp self-esteem, believe that"

yayaya, i always think the consequently first, i really really know it's good but i've much confident so i always assumed that, if i do that and blablabla so on--, but something that i judged at the first time, it never happen in my life! something i scared or wanted about, it never flow like wateeeeer! arrg, i dont know what should i do -,- indifferent