My Abhor Love-Story

I'm not in the good mood, so I dont wanna ask you more first.

Have you falling in love before? Definitely yes. Every people have feel this. But in my life, I always felt unrequited love. How poor am I! Admire on himself without being loved, ya this is always happen in my life :'(. Every songs that I've heard, It always tied to my live, yeah especially in my Love-Life, haha LOL.

Wanna cry loudly, but I cant. I never want to waste my tears for unimportant activities, like this. My face always give a smile but this heart was punctured by him. I know, he never feel the same way like me, my face is not pretty-awesome like her, but please appreciate other people, surely, you can do it! Dont give a hope to live in. I hate you, especially, in the way you treat other girl. Never go away if you dont have a sense. How damn you are! ~

Hm, there is a song that tied with life. Like Smile from Tamia,

Sometimes I sit at home and wonder how it'd be if he had loved me
Truly loved me, yes
I learned a while ago, that kind of thing, it never happens for me
And so I go around and just pretend
Love is not for me
I play the circus clown around my friends
Make them laugh and they won't see
That you never let ‘em see you sweat
Don’t want them to think the pain runs deep
Lord know its killing me

So I put on my makeup
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone asks me
Everything is ok
I’m laughing ‘cause no one
Knows the joke is on me
‘Cause I’m dying inside with my pride and a smile on my face
On my face
Singing la la la (la la, la la)
la la, ( la la, la la, la la)
la la (la la)
Ooooh (la la la laahh)
Laaaah

Sometimes I sit at home by the phone hoping he might call me (call me)
But he don't call me (call me, call me, call me)
But then I realize dreams come true
Aren't for girls like me, not like me
And so I go around with my head up
Like it ain't no thing
And when the boys around with all my friends
I’m into other things
‘Cause you never let them see you sweat
Don’t want them to think the pain runs deep
Lord knows its killing me


My friends just said 'be patient yaa :)'. Hey you dont know what I feel! I know, they mean well and want to relieve my pain, but dont say this if you dont know everything! Arrr~ damn! They've said this because they have boy-friends! This life is so difficult, fun but pierc my soul! My family always said this,

• "you aren't allowed to have a boy-friend after entering a university".

How could I wait for this? Haha, but I know, I must obey this for my future-life :'D

Yepp, I think that's all laah, I've told my bored-life, and It's so embarassing! LOL, just enjoy it, and thanks for reading this :)